Yesterday, I did some research about migrating my blog to another platform. It's not only possible, it's also quite easy to do. My first thought was that I could take my thoughts to a platform that had more readership, and then writing wouldn't feel like such a waste of time. But, it turns out, there is almost zero readership and plain ol boring text blogs. Was a time when you could blog about anything and people would just show up to hear your ranting. But not so much anymore. Now you have to be a celebrity or you have to offer something to reader, like a recipe, news, life advise, so on. And if you don't want to do that, basically no one will read your bullshit.
Going in a dark direction today. Lol.
The funny thing is, I think if I changed my media, I'd probably get more interest. Switch over to a video blog and then focus on the stupid dipshit crap that I do everyday. Here I am washing the dishes. Here I am feeding chickens. But that defeat the purpose of a journal for me. I did also study film in college, once upon a time. It was a deep passion for me. And even though I haven't filmed anything narrative for some fifteen to twenty years, I still daydream about pieces that I could make. I did a couple AI animated videos last year that actually turned out pretty cool. I could make more of those. But it's a lot of time and effort to get it right, for again, zero pay off. Took me about a day to make one minute of video with cuts, music and voice over.
And we get back to the "does it make any money" argument. I did some research about compensation for making content. Basically, it sucks. It wouldn't find any viewership unless it fell into a popular niche. Some niches pay better than others. Tech and investment videos pay pretty well. Cooking videos have a strong viewership.
I feel like my soul is being drained out as I go over this.
It's one of those things where, want you want to do is eat a fish. But it goes beyond the act of buying a pole and line and practicing fishing. Now you have to get a boat. Get a license. Meet the dock authority. Now that you have a boat, you have to staff it with sailors. But your sailors don't want to catch fish. That won't make enough money. They want to catch lobsters. Now you have to rerig your boat.
The metaphor I'm driving at is that I'm getting further and further from reaching what I want, because I'm trying to find an audience. They say you should build an audience. Which is code for "just keep working for free and maybe someone will like you". Which is exactly what you have to do.
I'm thinking that I need to change my perspective before I'm able to enjoy this. I still want it to be a career. But that's not going to happen. No more than strapping a bed sheet to my shoulders will make me fly. I need to think of this like I did my DnD hobby. I'm just painting stuff, writing stuff, and building stuff to have fun with my friends. I don't expect any money or reward out of it. It's just a hobby. But I think the crucial difference here is that there are no friends to share my writing with. Feels like I'll be the only reading it.
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